| Friday, May 28, 2004 |
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| Antiweddingmentarianism |
| A friend who went to Naps with me told me recently that he's getting married. He's the first one of the 24 of us from our 6th form class that has set a date; well that I know of anyway. (And well, there's Kara.) I'm still in shock. My position on the wedding has been made clear: I'm very happy for them both if they're sure that's what they wanna do. But marriage, anytime this decade, just ain't for me.
After getting out of a reasonably long relationship, I won't be getting into another for quite a while, not at least till next year. Then I need to be with that person for another three years before I even consider them being the person I wanna spend the rest of my life with. Then I need to live with them for another year or so; yes, I'm gonna shack up with them. It's something that I think I need to do to know if I'm comfortable living with that person. I'm not easy to live with and the other person needs to be comfortable living with me too. Yes, I have heard of the word "compromise" and I know that's what a real relationship is all about. I don't wanna have to find myself not loving that person after three years into the marriage and getting a divorce. I don't wanna ever get divorced, so I'll make sure that the person I choose to be my wife is the person I'm gonna spend the rest of my life with. And I also need to find a woman who shares my view of not wanting children. Askmen.com has some recent, very good articles about marriage: 1. The top ten signs you're ready to pop the question 2. The top ten worst reasons to marry her, and 3. Starter marriages: giving it a test run Now on to some BS. If you ask me, a wedding is an expense I could do without. My close friends know that my dream wedding is Red House and a big fete. Yuh done know! It's just a piece of paper saying that heterosexuals have legal rights over your/shared property. But since Trinidad has cohabitation laws, I don't see the need for me to go through all that. I could shack up; I'm fine with that, and to hell with what my family thinks. I'm not anti-wedding/anti-marriage eh; I'm just anti-wedding/anti-marriage when people do it because they think it's the natural progression of life, like having children. Nuts Saturday? Oh, and Gmail accounts are going for over US$100 on Ebay. I gave two away!  |
| 12:27 pm | | |
| Wednesday, May 26, 2004 |
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| Football Talk...yes again!! (edited) |
| AS Monaco just lost the Champions League final 3-0 to FC Porto. After a great run in the League by Monaco, they just couldn't finish the job. It's like good sex, without orgasm. (Although I don't really subscribe to the train of thought that sex is good Barcelona did a great thing by releasing Kluivert, Reizeger and Recber. But they also released Cocu and Overmars who I think are two of their better players. They're also letting Davids slip from their grasp and Luis Enrique is moving on also. Wholesale changes are being made but I hope they too don't end up with out the orgasm. Like Chelsea. They both did exceptionally well to claim second place in their respective leagues though. I especially congratulate Barca because they started the season very poorly, to end it with a 17-match unbeaten run, while Real Madrid lost their last five matches. Real now have to qualify for the Champions League next year, but so does Man Utd. I hope Inter gets their act together. As does Manchester United. Man U, wrapped up the Alan Smith deal a few hours ago in a good deal for them worth 7M pounds. Not so good for Leeds though (the other team I follow in England). Don't know what the firetruck is going on with Inter. Still can't believe they lost 1-5 to Arsenal in the group stage. That was heart-wrenching. The European football leagues are over. Guess I'll have to follow the TT Pro League and the Super League now. That sucks ass. At least there's Euro2004 in a few weeks. I'm backing France and England. France, fo sheezy yo! And I've been playing with Yahoo! Launch recently and today I made my own radio station. I think something's wrong with my selection of music though. I have these weird artistes that I don't even know. But it's still some cool shit. And I wasn't all wasteful today. I printed like eight letters to send out to places tomorrow. Bright and early. |
| 4:31 pm | | |
| Tuesday, May 25, 2004 |
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| Do nothing, go nowhere |
| Since my exams finished I've been basically doing nothing. I borrowed a couple books on databases from the library so I could do some retooling, but that's about it. I haven't been keeping up with my job search really. Infact, I've been going about it in totally the wrong way. I'm being reminded of what I spent last 'summer' doing while Miranda wasn't here: abso-fucking-lutely nothing. Last year, I was supposed to have gotten a firm grasp of Javascript but that didn't happen. By the time school restarted I hadn't learnt anything new. I was researching a business idea and that didn't work out either. These have been some really unproductive years for me. I wanna get into IT but I have no documented skills, and I'd been applying to IT departments when it finally hit me late last week that I really shouldn't be. I know some accounting and I should start my job search by looking for those jobs.
I went home for the first time in about a month Saturday. I really had to do my laundry so I had to travel down with two big bags of dirty laundry. So I told my dad that I wasn't feeling well at all, both mentally and physically since my hatred of accounting and exams resulted in me not eating properly for the last few weeks. Told him that I didn't wanna do it and that right now I'm not very concerned with graduating, cus frankly, I don't think I will. I need a break from school for the summer. Surprisingly, he was very cool with it all and was understanding that the fact that I didn't wanna be an accountant had an impact on me not doing very well. (I'm looking at the amount of "I's" that are in this blog). I need some cheering up. Know what'll cheer me up? If someone takes me to the Nuts this Saturday :-) But seriously, this weekend started something in me. I realised that I have no plan. I don't know where I'm going, what I'm doing. I was never like this. Oh, and in my last phone bill for the cycle April 17-May16, I noticed I had a call to Toronto on my bill, which I obviously didn't make; not long, just two minutes. What was even more weird was the fact that the date on the call was some time in March. Fucking TSTT!! |
| 11:14 am | | |
| Wednesday, May 19, 2004 |
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| What a week! |
| Last week I had four exams: Tuesday till Friday, all at 9am. I was on campus everynight that week till after 12. I'm gonna be here again next year. Uncle Khalid's wife was murdered. My MP Nizam Baksh's son was kidnapped and killed. Patrick Manning and his minions decided it was most wise for them to say "No Comment" and to not go to the funeral of the murdered son of one of their parliamentarian colleagues. Instead they complain about the UNC not supporting the Police Reform bills. And Bas saying we need constitutional reform. Sunday night I saw a dead woman on the highway in El Socorro, and I saw that accident with the police car at the traffic lights by UWI.
But the week was well balanced by the fact that I'm rapidly getting over my shyness. I introduced myself to a girl on campus last week, and Saturday night I went to The Nuts and met two hot girls! Yep, that's right. TWO! One of them was 25 too. And I even asked them for their numbers: got two out of 3. Nuts was the shiznit! And then on Sunday I went to my first car rally. Saw parts of Trinidad I never knew existed. Now I lookin for wukk. Check meh by Curepe Junction. And I'm yet to check out this new Blogger thing. And I can't get into my Gmail. |
| 4:13 pm | | |
| Friday, May 07, 2004 |
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| Let it go! |
| This is from Reiko Star:
At 23 after someone exercised their gift of goodbye on me I realized "People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay. Let them go. And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person; it just means that their part in the story is over...don't try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone." And that's exactly what I did. Feels good doesn't it? |
| 1:53 am | | |
| Tuesday, May 04, 2004 |
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| The daily grind |
| The daily grind. Getting up at 10. Getting to school and purchasing my first meal of the day at around 1. Reading the newspaper. Sitting behind a computer for a couple hours. Doing something incredibly stupid. Go back behind the computer. Have lunch at 5pm. Go back behind the computer. Go to library at 10. Gape nice white girl (I'm sitting next to her again). Go back behind computer. Do work for an hour. Go home at 4. Sleep till 10. And the shit starts all over again.
Sunday I went to Maracas with the family. It rained lightly for most of the time; just lightly. Beach was empty. Hardly any girls, but most of the ones there needed to go put back on their clothes. I really don't need to see girls in bikinis if they're also sporting lots of stretchmarks and acne. Cover that shit up! My sister went back to England yesterday. She gave me her thumb drive. My resume-sending drive seems to have simmered alot. I only sent them on two days last week and haven't since. Today I spent some time reading up on entrepreneurship and other small-business issues. I intend on opening my own business hopefully before 2007 ends. I don't think I can work for people for too long. Don't ask me right now what kind of business I'm going into cus I don't know. It's the only way I see myself making any serious kind of income to have all the things I want, like a hot-tub in my bathroom, or I could put it in the deck in my back yard. Yeah, I've already drawn up the dimensions for my house. I'm sure you've thought about it too. I just put what's in my head on paper. Well back to the library. |
| 10:20 pm | | |